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i will love this love forever....
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[11 Jul 2005|07:39pm] |
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well black water jack he had a shot gun.....
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[01 Jul 2005|12:01pm] |
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workin at petland in strangeville mall....i sold about 1,200 worth of animals yesterday...i think thats good..for it only being my second day...i like working in sales. maybe just being manipulative...anywang, if you feel like getting any for the petzzz and whatnots come and see me...i work on commission..everylil bit helps. first it was babies,now its puppies...i just might burn in hell for this.
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[16 Jun 2005|02:24pm] |
On the day the duck was born
The fox was watching all along
He said, "Land Ho!" when he saw the duck
"Land Ho!" and the duck saw him too
'Shiny Pretty Fox' thought the duck
The duck came up onto the land
The fox saw her and he just laughed
"I could show you some shiny tricks." he said
"Come along we'll get our kicks," he said
"Land Ho!" for shiny tricks
"Land Ho!" for me
"Oh Fox! is theis love? can you tell me? What is love?"
That good looking fox only knew one trick
He could break hearts just lickety-split
The duck knew this game she had to quit
And her own pond she was headed to quick
"I'll go I'll go and there's no looking back"
Goodbye little fox
got a second interview at the music place at 7 tonight..cross youre fingers,toes,legs,arms,eyes everything you can for me
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[16 Jun 2005|01:54pm] |
Jigsaw Youth, the misunderstood seeking to understand other people's reality.
...story of my measley life....
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[14 Jun 2005|03:50pm] |
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job interview today at 7 at the music center...pray that i get it....this job would be perfect for me.i neeed it i need it i nneeeed i need i want i must haaaaaave
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[14 Jun 2005|03:50pm] |
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look meliss eets me and ouiiii!!...we should start our own band...fuck all those boys with their fucked up noise!yeah wooooooo!!!!
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[12 Jun 2005|07:34pm] |
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the healing process begins....sloooooooooooowlllllllly...all my song books diaries and pictures were thrown away...but im okay with it..no choice. time to start over.....lkugfckihyfg < me slamming my head onto the keyboard......if you shit yellow water out of your ass can you call it pee?
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[11 Jun 2005|03:41pm] |
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what has happened in the past 4 months...my car was wrecked, but most of all my heart...im back in strongsville....jobless,heartless,carless,homeless(in a sense that i roof but still feel out of place)....ive lost 20 pounds due to stress, but im still fat.loneliness is the worst punishment god could give you. i believe. but what the fuck do i know about pain..
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[11 Jun 2005|03:33pm] |
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woooooooooo......sigh,..nobody loves me...and i pawned my guitar.
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[02 Jan 2005|02:20pm] |
i will update...im doing good...a friend of mine died and it woke me up. its a sad thing really...its all too real, but im glad this happened. it stopped me from giving up on people. and realizing how much being with friends matters. making yourself numb is the worst thing you can do.no more being selfish.
new years eve,
hung out with some great great big hearts which was the best medicine a girl could get. missed a couple girls so bad i didnt know how to feel.
but overall..im just remembering how to breathe, be with friends, and to make myself just sit the fuck down.
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[02 Nov 2004|02:13am] |
lets seeeeeeee, kay for halloween i went as sally* and got nominated for awesome costume contest but i lost to some drunk azz ho's feelin on eachothers titties....
roger was drag
lissa was a gypsie faerie
steven was a skeleton
and omg i got so crunked
i puked in my beer'
got a bloody nose
it was nutsooooo
i danced with everyone
even jesus*
i love costume parties cus you can do what the hell ever
and not get caught*
i saw old friends, new ones and found a sister in one girl
i just wish i could remember her name
we're made of the same stuff...its weird..i miss her and i dont even know her....
then to top the night/morning off
we went to an after party where a boy kept telling me how much in love with me he was
it was fun..i heart when people heart me...even if its drunk jabber,its very pretty very pretty words pretty pretty im glad my friends are such great lovers*
when they come to find me
i wont fall to pieces
im taking it back and im taking it back,
taking it back and im taking it back
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[24 Oct 2004|12:32pm] |
everybody just want to be that special someone to somebody
restore the fallens faith in humanity
make promises that pave the way
to a path that makes up
for all your dads mistakes
i can remember a girl who just turned 15
and in her eyes were movies of her dreams
and everything she said was like poetry floatin out of her mouth was a melody
"you are everything i want to be"
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[21 Oct 2004|04:44pm] |
Jigsaw Youth, the misunderstood seeking to understand
other people's reality.
Making mistakes... making mistakes... making mistakes... making mistakes... feeling something.
Knowing you will never see the puzzle and put all together,
but trying anyways cuz each fucking piece really matters and
being with friends matters.
so i wont forget....and to remind you~
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[18 Oct 2004|01:56am] |
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i havent seen you in 3 months. youve made no move to try to salvage anything.i call. i leave messages, you dont care/answer/return my call. i dont understand. ive left you a note on your windshield at dennys and was extra carefull on making sure it wouldnt fly away. but that didnt even matter cause it might as well have. i told you i missed you. and you i know do. you dont care. ..i dont even know who you are now..</p>
on another note.. i hung the phone up on kayla today..ive never done that to anybody...i guess im just tired of being treated like shit...then like the most amazing person to be around ONCE the boyfriend is out of town or at work or out of the picture....the faith that ive lost in people in just these past few months is like......god........wtf.....
.......... i believed in you so bad and so hard. i guess im just stupid. and you are too..
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[02 Oct 2004|12:38pm] |
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surgery tuesday....ehn..i dont even care anymore...its like my arm doesnt even belong to me anymore..its just there..doing its best to be normal..kinda like me and everyone i know....im finally getting back into orbit..my own orbit....i need to move out or i will lose all hope compeletly..whatever that means,i hate money...it controls everything EVERYTHING....eventhough i dont have any of it..i broke down and bought myself a cd yesterday....Fatherfucker by Peaches...its been the highlight of my week...i got writers block too...which sucks because ive been inspired by almost everything lately..i just can get it out...its alright tho, cause i know when i do get it out, itll be like, the most relieving puke ever....and we all knhow that feeling.
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[01 Oct 2004|11:30am] |
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thats it....only fruit and vegetables...1 hour walks daily..no cigarettes...no alcohol....shit loads of water..i shall be pure.pffffttt..okay well, i will look forward to that someday..until then...wheredaweedat
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[26 Sep 2004|12:36pm] |
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how can i have such and heavy heart when you completely emptied it out.but i actually think that i dont care.ow my stomach hurts. today is a shit day. tomorrow is a shit day.wtfwtfwtf.i am so fucking stuck.tricky tricky feet of lead.
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[11 Aug 2004|09:28pm] |
</b>im now the person i became
then i will shed some skin
and be the person i am
going to guatemala friday
i got a damn warrant out
fuck the police
i need money
i love money
its sad to say
but if i had an endless amount of money
id be so in
no problems
no worries
but i think id be just
as happy if there was
no such thing as money
go to the parties
listen to the dj
dance d'd'dance dance n go crazy
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[09 Aug 2004|10:32am] |
some people lose themselves
and forget who they are
lose their identity
i remember as a child
i would spin around to
change my consciousness
adults spin different ways tho
turn to anything to help them spin
when youre trapped inside yourself
it seems like the only way out
me and erin are supposed to hang out today♥
but my effing boss scheduled me to work
all the way out in westlake...for four hours
well, that is the stupidest thing ever.
im free wednesday tho bebecakes..i think
i feel like writin some songs with ya..
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